Hey guys;
I dropped my tattoo ideas in at Wildfire today.
So yeah; pretty damn excited.
god
no idea what im doing.
try to look for another guy - half find him - thoughts race back to you.
thoughts of you fill and overindulge my senses - new guy seems so flawed.
push thoughts aside, see new guy isn’t what i want; only a gap i’m trying to fill asap to avoid being lonely and depressed.
why.
feelings are mutual but just.. why; we can make it work - i promise.
Sigh.
Now, considering I’m not set back by not wanting to disappoint Chris, I think I’m going to start (second time) to stretch my ears to wear the FCK H8! plugs I bought months ago.
Still hurts a little bit, because I had a major decision taking them out for him, and putting them back in just seems like going behind his back, but I dunno.
Off to TAFE; and I look fancy, naturally.
Tamworth over night is going to suck but hey; a night off work is a night off work. :-)
From now on..
Whenever I listen to this Dashboard Confessional album, I’m going to cry.
Not because I’m sad, but because the last time I heard this; I was the happiest I’ve ever been in my life. Spending it with the only man I’ve ever loved with every inch of my heart, soul & body.
And I know, deep down, someday, someday it’ll work out. It’ll all work out. And I won’t have to cry alone, because his shoulder will be there, comforting, warm and ever so inviting. Just, just so he can be the one to say it’ll be alright, everything will be just fine; just stay strong..
I love you Woofer.
everyone’s been boring, ive been boring.
im leaving for melbourne on tuesday
feel free to send me cute messages/asking about stuff/anything.
I’ll be uploading a lot of images in the next couple of days.
keep your eyes open if you even care.
x
Fairly sure I’m set on my tattoo.
I just, whenever I listen to that one song by them; I almost cry, not because it’s a sad song to me or anything, but before they played it - Ger said the most inspirational thing I’ve ever heard. And I don’t know.. It just feels right.
One of the hardest choices I face far too often is deciding whether or not I need this piece of band merch. I stare at my cart, I stare at the postage, the total cost, the items I picked so hard on.. And then to just close the tab and act as if it never happened, hurts. Band merch is something I just can’t-not buy. I need more shirts. Even though I’ve run out of clothes hangers about 5 times so far.
This post means nothing to most of you;
I hope you’re feeling better by the time you read this; it sucks seeing you unwell and lifeless (I kid about being lifeless; but seriously) I hope you’re feeling on-top of the world and can actually eat again.
And I do hope you’re smiling, because I think you’re cute.
I don’t even know.
I had a funked mood yesterday, and was completely over everything, and hoping that having some coca-cola for the first time in 2 weeks would help, but waking up and having breakfast today.. I, I just feel so over everything.
I’m over this town, the lack of friends I have, my job, lack of licence, lack of car, lack of funds, just, everything. I know I physically and personally have to make changes to change all that, but, I’ve been working so hard for the past 2 and a half years, and it just feels so useless.
I just need to get away from here, not for a week, not for a month; I just need to start fresh somewhere. Go somewhere where people don’t know me, don’t know anything besides what I present to them, just.. Next year couldn’t come faster.
And even in saying that; if I don’t get qualified from TAFE & my boss next year, then well; I can’t stick around for another year, I honestly can’t.
I’m just over being physically lonely.
So as shit as this quality is; this is was our first photo ‘together’.
And I think it’s cute, and he’s cute. But Chris will probably dislike this, but Chris, what you gonna do?
I don’t even understand ‘music’ fans.
After reading reviews around for ‘The Used’s new album - Vulnerable. All I saw was negative feedback, and how there’s only 2 or 3 songs that are decent.
I’ve listened to this album 12 times through and counting, and I haven’t found any song I dislike - Including the 3 bonus acoustic tracks on the deluxe version.
So what if it’s not the same old sound. It’s good they’re progressing, they still sound fucking amazing, and they’re just as fucking amazing live. And in actual fact - this ‘new’ sound isn’t that far off their old sound, if at all.
The lyrics are just as good as their older stuff, the sound is amazing, and fuck; it’s still Bert.
Get over your butthurt and enjoy the album.
+ Before you throw “everyone has their own individual opinions” at me; that’s just it - this is my opinion.
